Letter about my apathy (tony walker's) 1-of -3 a tale of two dogs. Which dog are you?
Letter about my apathy (tony walker's) 1-of-3 a tale of the excited and the unwilling (if anyone feels so inclined, they may put their name in place of mine and share this with their friends)
Dear Brothers And Sisters, and Friends And Family in Christ.
I want to repent of my apathy. Father in heaven please forgive me and help me to be all that you want me to be.
Now I know repenting is more than just mouthing words, it also involves action. I will tell you what apathy I am repenting of, but first I want to give a mental picture of how I think I react to God's will and His request of me.
Have you ever had a dog that when he sees you he is all excited to come to you and if you have a ball that is even better? Now you throw the ball and that dog runs after the ball and returns the ball to you and he is so happy. Doing what you want is what he wants and he willingly runs after the ball again and again as you throw it time after time. That is dog number 1 but I am more like dog number 2. God throws the ball and I just stay with God. God says go get the ball and I tell God I don't want to play that game. God says this is not a game, I do not play games, now go get the ball. Now at this point I do think I do go and try to do the will of God (our heavenly Father), but by this time I've loss sight of the ball, and that makes the task tougher on me and often requires more time and is less than what I could have had if I just been excited to do His bidding in the first place. Or at least I could be willing to do His bidding rather than telling Him about my desire to not do His will.
It is late and I am going to have to take a break here. I will tell of my apathy in the next communication.
Maybe some of you could tell me how you respond to God and if this is any encouragement to you. Hopefully you do a better Job than I have.
My email address is tonywBabies@yahoo.com Yours in Christ, tony walker
Letter about my apathy 2-of 3 and the river. 4/14/2014
My Apathy (tony walker) and the river.
I like rivers. They are a place of life and growth and refreshment. But this picture of a river I see in my mind's eye is very different. I go to the river looking to be refreshed, but to my dismay I see a dead body floating slowly by and the air stinks of dead flesh. I think what should I do? What can I do? Then I start sinking into retreat into apathy. I console myself saying this is not my doing, this is not my problem. But as I continue to look at the river I see to my horror that the river is full of dead bodies and that is why the stench is so strong. Now I think I can not just sit by and do nothing. I must find out more, so I travel up river only to be aghast at what I see. To my shock I see people throwing bodies into the river, only these bodies being cast into the river are not dead. They are alive and they drown and rot in the river. And I said oh Lord help me, what is my part to do with all this? And the Lord says “you have right doctrine, but where is your action? My children are being put to death and you have your right thoughts and high platitudes! My children are in a house on fire and you drive by and you say I did my part, my thoughts are right and I gave to the firefighter's fund. This house afire is not my responsibility. God says “come away from your apathy and put action to your thoughts. Whatever you do unto the least of these you do unto me. And that mess in the river is causing the land to stink and their blood is crying out to me”. Now my thought is well I will do something today then I will be off the hook for the rest of the year. And God tells me “thank you my son, but my children are being but to death daily and you need to make this a daily part of your life”. What I tell God is “Yes lord I want to be your willing servant, show me your way. Help me to know and do your will. Help me to make a Godly difference in people's lives, and help me to point them to you”.
Part 3 next: Letter about my apathy 3-of-3 and calling me to action
I would be encouraged to know if you this is any help for you. Please feel free to share this with others or to share your ideas with me. My email: tonywBabies@yahoo.com Yours in Christ, tony walker
Letter about my apathy 3-of-3 and calling me to action 4/14/2014
Letter about my (tony walker's) apathy 3 and calling me to action
First of all I want you to know I am only talking about my guilt and my need to repent. Also I am hoping to be the most effective in all that God is calling me to do and I look forward to hearing advise that helps me do that. I want to be a Godly example in all that I do and I thank you in advance for your input. Well by now I probably, as they say, “I let the cat out of the bag” or as one might say because of my subject mater “I am calling the baby from the womb” I make this plea to those around me “Please forgive me for my apathy and my lack of action. I have been guilty of looking around and comparing and saying well somebody else isn't doing much so why should I think it is my need to do more? I really do not know what someone else is doing, but I do know that what God says to me “whatever you do to the least of these you have done it unto me” Mat. 25:31-45. The situation of the baby in the womb is not getting any better. Many who believe not God, and place their hope in the wisdom of man, would argue that there are too many and we must use wisdom and not destroy the earth. But we who believe God and that he is the giver of good gifts, and that He is our provider and our hope and our redeemer. And we who have a message of hope, how do we fit man's wisdom with what scripture says, that it is God that opens or closes the womb (close Gen 20:18 open Genesis 29:31, 30:22). And with “Ps 127:3 Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is his reward”. This is God saying children are a extraordinary blessing, our heritage from Him. Now if we say “no Lord I am not counting this as a blessing”, what are we saying? That which God calls a blessing, we are calling a curse and a burden and something we can trash. How do we fit that with “whatever you do to the least of these you have done it unto me”? If Mary had aborted at day one of her conception, would she have been aborting Jesus or just some cells? Would it have been Just some product of conception and not Jesus? Anyway the psalm continues Ps 127:4-5 As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth. 5 Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate. Can anyone imagine a man going out to war with only two arrows as quiver full? I would not want to need that man serving to defend me. Imagine sending an army out to battle with only two bullets each, sorry that is all you get. I think that would have a detrimental affect on his courage to fight. I believe we are losing the battle because we have chosen to believe man rather than placing our trust in God and his word. Fathers are taught that having children is bad if they have more than one or two, after all you will have trouble supplying for their needs. Please know this that it is not you that is supplying but God is doing it through you and he is able to supply for all the children he gives. Mothers, married or single are encouraged to kill their young. And Babies are being torn apart limb from limb having their heads crushed and their bodies pulled out and trashed, or now harvested to make skin creams and other things so we can have softer bodies and fewer children. If this was happening to adults we would hopefully cry out and pray for these being martyred, but we have been lulled into accepting this because it is out of sight, and we into believing it is for the greater good. I do not know what God is saying to anyone else, but I am asking you to forgive me for my apathy and my lack of rescuing action for the least of these. I am hoping to be doing better. Thank you for holding me acountable.
I hope to hear from you. My email: tonywBabies@yahoo.com Your brother in Christ, tony